slowly moving..

i called both my trustee and case manager about this apartment in boston and i'm pretty sure i have things starting to get lined up to actually move there. i toured a unit from this particular apartment last time i took my trip to boston. my case manager had asked me about what i was gonna do for medical services, if i had that planned out yet, i asked her to look into transferring my services. they gotta have a low-income option insurance in boston, maybe it's not as good as minnesota (since amanda seems to think minnesota is the best for health care.. i'm not sure when she studied the medical profession and how she became so damn smart on medical resources while doing hair.. but that's another reason why i don't find ANY good reasons to remain in this state- she assumes she can be neglectful as possible just because SHE SAYS "minnesota is the best for health care!".. i also wasn't aware in her experience PERSONALLY dealing with health care which is best for TBI's *rolls eyes*). i remember when i was looking into moving to new york, wells fargo hired a consultant to assist me in moving and all the things i needed to get lined up. the main reason why i didn't move to new york then was because housing was so difficult in new york to get. i DO remember her bringing me a little packet of health providers in new york to look at. considering one of my trustees convinced me she was too expensive to keep- i had to get rid of her. so i'll try to do this myself. i suppose it could be a good thing that i try to be as resourceful as possible when doing everything i do, since the woman my grandma was CONVINCED would "get me to new york" basically pushed me on a boat in a river without an oar or paddle to assist me in moving myself up the stream because she doesn't find any interest in MY GOALS, screaming at me, "YOU GOT THIS!" in order to show her useless idea of "support" and it's just an inconvenience to actually assist me in something she doesn't personally find interest in- which shows her amount of "care" for me, besides that- it's more amusing for her to watch me struggle, so she can laugh at me with my other cousin dustin. it's just easier and more convenient for her to keep me as handicap/disabled as possible.. especially since she can gain points with her in-laws while her sister-in-law (i think) works as a physical therapist at courage kenny even though i went there already for at least 3 or 4 damn years and my grandma CLAIMED EVERY NIGHT that amanda will "get you {me} to new york!" after i would cry to her about how i was wasting my time and life at courage kenny because they refused to recognize my potential and ability for their advantage. IF YOU WANNA SEE SOMEONE WASTE THEIR FUCKING TIME AT COURAGE KENNY, YOU ATTEND THAT PATHETIC EXCUSE OF A "REHABILITATION INSTITUTE". QUIT YOUR JOB AND WASTE YOUR TIME BEING UNDERESTIMATED BY THEM, KEEPING YOU THERE BECAUSE NO ONE WILL ADVOCATE FOR YOU TO ACTUALLY PROGRESS AND ACTUALLY MAKE SOMETHING OF YOURSELF!.. that IS what they did to ME afterall!